host mother, or, ultrasound adventures of a currently empty uterus
MRS. SHORTCAKE | Friday, November 6, 2009 at 1:00AM
So, I had a diagnostic ultrasound yesterday. I had the BEST ultrasound tech; a cute, 15 years old-ish looking guy with spiked hair and a very open and honest personality. I pulled down my jeans, he rubbed jelly on me, we became friends.
I told him that I was one of those patients who always asked a bazillion questions about everything that was going on, and he smiled and laughed - because he was the kind who like giving answers!
As he pressed uncomfortably hard on my insanely huge bladder (I drank, what, 3L before the appointment? Even he was impressed with its size) we talked about losses and pregnancies (most of the women he's seen do come back with pregnancies - yay!), and how truly, everybody is getting pregnant this year.*
*Raise your hand if you are pregnant, or know some one who is pregnant. SEE! I told you!
We talked about charting BBTs and tracking fertility, I asked what a septate uterus would look like and how to judge the thickness of one's myometrium.
Side note: all through junior high and high school, my goal was to become a pediatric neonatologist (I love babies, have you noticed? :) ) , and I would take maternal nurse textbooks out of the library and study them for fun. I was a very bookish child, but this love of research and of everything BABIES is really developing. I've considered becoming a doula, but my passion is still photography. As for becoming a doctor, I still won't pursue it because my dream of becoming a mother and being there to raise my children is more important to me - and going back to school and specializing would definitely put a kink in my baby-making plans now!
View Printer Friendly Version
Email Article to Friend
Reader Comments (11)
Your blog is absolutely ADORABLE {i wish my blog looked just like this, but don't worry...i'll never be tech savvy enough to mimic your cuteness}. That's neat that you now have an portrait of your insides...I haven't dug around on here enough to figure out why exactly but I'm guessing you're wanting a little babe!? I can't wait to look around some more!
Thanks so much for stopping by my blog...I CANNOT believe that they were going to charge you so much for peonies...that's robbery! I wanted them in our wedding too but apparently they are Spring flowers {like all of my other favorites} and we got married in the Fall. Don't worry...we still got married without them.
Happy Friday & I love your Blog!
Jen
You're the cutest Ally...only you would have a uterus' first portrait. And only you would manage to sneak in a camera to take photos of your ultrasound for a blog.
Too funny.
I hope they find something though!
Slightly off-topic but I think you would make an amazing doula!
Hope everything goes well with the rest of your tests. One of my close friends went through a battery of tests this year and I am happy to report she is currently pregnant, so I am crossing my fingers and hoping the same for you. :)
Big hugs!
Thanks so much for visiting my blog! Your blog is adorable . I love your honesty and wit! You seem like you are in what I like to call the " strong women's" club. This is a little club I created after I had my miscarriage. I went back through my ancestry and realized that my grandmother lost a daughter at age 2, my greatgrandmother lost 2 kids and my great aunt also lost 2 children. Somehow I found strength in the fact that if they can do it then I could do it! I turned my anger into strength .I hate when people would give me all that oh " it was meant to happen" crap so I found my own strength that was already inside me. No matter the outcome this journey will make you a wonderful, strong mom !
Thanks for stopping by :)
I love the portrait of your girly parts! Alien Spawn TX2000 is a great baby name as well... although I think that giving birth to a human baby might be slightly less messy.
SOOOOOOO Hi, its me again... after doing a little research I realized that you have had 2 unsucessful pregnancies and I wanted to tell you that I think you are so freakin awesome, brave, amazing, strong (insert 35456231534 encouraging words here) for trying again! 2 years ago, I accidentally got pregnant- I was young, in college, and scared shitless, After finally accepting it, and even getting excited about it, I lost the baby at 4.5 months. They don't know why and I still haven't been to a doctor since I had to deliver- (I know, I know... I should go- but im not ready yet) Now, I worry about it happening again if I ever do decide I want another baby. I just wanted to let you know that you are wonderful and such an inspiration! Im going to be following your progress and im keeping my fingers crossed for you ♥
I think it's seriously awesome that you framed the portrait of your uterus. Really. That made my day.
A few years ago I was also on an intense investigative journey to find out what was wrong with my own uterus. I'll never forget the day I went in for an endoscopy and the amazing doc asked me if I'd like to see what the inside of my uterus looked like. Would I?? WOULD I???? Though I don't have a photo of it, I'll never forget what I saw on that tv screen - pink and squishy and... dare I say, homey-looking? It made me feel so happy and connected to my body. That's what went through my mind as I read your post.
I think it's fabulous you are embarking on this journey with such zest and almost... what's the word? Delight. It's delightful to follow.
I love your blog! I came here after I saw your post on my friend's blog Henleyonthehorn about my tablescape for my husband. It actually had more history than she went into-mud cloth from Africa, bread basket from Bali, on and on. But I love your wit and humour!! I went through what you are going through and the first thing i will tell you, I am not going to give you ANY advice!!! It is so hard! And everyone wants to make you feel better, but nothing but having a successful pregnancy will , You either love me or hate me right now. It sucks and i know the answer is to get your mind off it, and all you can think about is HAVING A BABY!!! I will be following your blog and anticipating what life will bring you!! Great blog!!
I am not going to tell you my outcome 10 years later, because it doesn't matter to you. What matters is having your baby!!!!
So, you knitted yourself a uterus. You are funny and your blog is so sweet. You must be the strawberry kind.
Thank you for dropping-by, I hope to visit you again.
@Ocean Girl: I hope I'm the strawberry kind! ;) Oh, and I didn't knit the uterus - my knitting is still relegated to half-finished scarves! "D
Thanks for stopping by my blog the other day! As I was reading this entry, it brought me back to when I was going through fertility treatment. I have PCOS, so it was a challenge getting pregnant to say the least. I did the meds, artificial insemination and ultimately IVF. Got pregnant, then miscarried. As I'm sure you can attest, its' an emotional rollar coaster. But, as we move toward adoption, I had a friend who recommended going to, of all things, a chiropractor. She said she knew of friends who had adjustments that affected their reproductive systems and amazingly, they got pregnant. Well, I went in skeptical, but did it. I had three sessions in May. In June, I got pregnant. I found out on the 4th of July, 2004. I now have a 4 year old daughter and 2 year old son (another surprise). Who knew? The best of luck to you!